I have to adult today. No more running away from responsibilities. For the past few days I felt desperately overwhelmed. So I played this game, where I pictured my issues and responsibilities vanishing into thin air. I wanted them to disappear so badly I actually acted as though they were non-existent. I let 48 hours … Continue reading Adult Today
It’s usually around 2am or 3am when I’d have flashbacks I would then convince myself that he never did, or else he wouldn’t have walked away. I asked God to show me some type of hope Since becoming so despondent, I forgot how to dream. God is good and gracious, my sister saw it in … Continue reading Construction Site
Yes, I’m desperate Yes, I’m lonely and needy. Half the time I feel like screaming. The other half, I’m blocking these random urges to cry, and I don’t even know why I need to cry. All I want is a shoulder to cry on, and a little hug Is that really too much to ask? … Continue reading Needy
What part of cold is cold enough to make yall’s fingers break How much do you scream over each other till yall drown? How much do your families have to dislike yall till you lose your way? Your words made me claustrophobic, so I got out of the car and walked to the back My … Continue reading Différent
Callous walls in the pits of the stomach The kind that when you scrape, fall like dead skin off the soles of your feet They build up every time conflict turns to resentment, They then turn guile and leave a bitter taste. It’s the things inside you Deceit and every ugly thing stirring within That … Continue reading Without Dissimulation
I’m okay. Today I want to curl up into a ball of paper. Folded, squashed and thrown into a bin. I’m mentally and physically drained My emotions are foils squashed and ripped apart. My legs numb, and so do my arms. I feel sad and helpless. I tell you how I feel, but you … Continue reading Helpless
Joy should come in the morning So empty yourself up like making your whole self karappo Let the winds flow through and out of you to cleanse and get rid of yesterday’s blemishes.