She has Tourette Syndrome. She’s a fighter. She inspires me. Her name is Jamie Grace.
I know what it feels like, for your physical body to do things beyond your mind’s control.
I’ve had a different type of experience, twice.
I like to think, that if my life can contain such low and dark places, perhaps there will be highs beyond my imagination.
I guess if I ever would write something close to an autobiography, I might write about it, but obviously now is not the time.
I’ve learnt to guard my heart. To guard my soul, and to guard my spirit being.
There are nights when my memory haunts me. But my mum’s voice always rings loud in my ears. That when the devil reminds you of your past, you remind him of his future. That he will burn in the lake of fire for eternity.
Looking out the window today, I see now how far I’ve come. The battles I’ve had to fight.
I’m learning to not complain to God or throw tantrums at Him because He knows all things, He does all things well, and He does everything in His timing.
Maybe sometimes bad things happen to you to mold you. Or maybe to make you strong and big enough for you to fight the bigger battles for Him. Or maybe some of the bad things are the devil’s way of trying to steal you, to violate you and to throw you away so you’d never find out the valuable things God puts inside of you.
I love the lyrics to the song Hills and Valleys by Tauren Wells:
“On the mountains, I will bow my life
To the one who set me there
In the valley, I will lift my eyes to the one who sees me there
When I’m standing on the mountain aft, didn’t get there on my own
When I’m walking through the valley end, no I am not alone!
You’re God of the hills and valleys!”
I thank God for the moment He put me inside my mother’s womb. I thank Him for creating me just the way I am. I thank Him for the plans He wrote for me. I thank Him for everything about me.
I thank God for sending His precious Son down to earth to save us.
I thank Him for sending the Holy Spirit down to earth, to comfort and heal.
The verse that I’m always reminded of no matter what I go through is Deuteronomy 31:6.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
That no matter what we go through He is faithful, that He will always listen to us.
I know everyone has their “fighter” story where they’ve had to battle things in their lives. I’m just glad I had the Heavenly Father to save me, protect me, heal me, and mold me into someone I can look into the mirror and love.
No matter who you are or where you are, and no matter what battles you’ve had to fight, remember that God in Heaven is real, and faithful, and His love is overwhelmingly true.
“The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” -Psalm 34:18