Before my future that means the world to me.
Before my present, and before everything that has any value in life.
Before it all. Please.
I’ll ignore how the threat of the linchpin falling out
Shook everyone to their core.
Hyperventilating in the library
or having your sister’s voice cut off on the phone
or you’re dad researching solutions online
none of it should matter right now.
All I know and believe in right now;
the vision of never ever ever again
Feeling blades through your head
Agonizing for hours, days, months and years.
I choose to believe that those flowers, and gardens
Will be planted by you, smiling wholeheartedly
Where the nights when you couldn’t sleep
Or afternoons when you sit with your head in your hand
Will be no more.
You said that God has done countless miracles in our lives.
I wondered how you could be that strong,
but I’m learning too.
Oh Lord, who by Your stripes we are healed,
Please, before everything please.